I love pattern and repetition. If it looks good singly, I bet it will look great multiplied out.
There is something in repetition that I find ultimately soothing, calming, and satisfying. I can go for days, even weeks, without leaving the house. I can do the same things over and over again until it becomes a form of mediation for me.
When the patterns of my life are interrupted on a daily basis, I start to tweak. When those interruptions involve leaving the house and going places and seeing people ALOT I kind of lose it.
Back in graduate school, I took the Myer Briggs personality test. The goal of the test is to identity personality types which in turn help “individuals to grow through an understanding and appreciation of individual differences in healthy personalities and to enhance harmony and productivity in diverse groups”.
I am an INTJ, but for many years, I was an ENTJ. Really I am fifty-fifty in my answers on this aspect of the test. The I is short for Introvert and the E is short for Extravert. For this personality test, introvert and extravert are not about how you behave at parties. Unless I’ve got the flu, I am hands down an extravert in public.
For the Myers Briggs personality test it has to do with how you GET your energy. Does being in the middle of the dance floor pump you up?
For me, it goes both ways. I love a good party, conference, art opening where I get to interact with lots of people and ideas. But this true for only a short while. If I am in this environment day after day. I start to feel mental. I can’t do it.
I know it is not just me. This time of year can crush people emotionally.
There is the regular day to day that a one women show like me has got to try and stay on top of.
And when you start to add extras, I begin to unravel.
First there was a weekend of teaching.
Next, two amazing band concerts. Ozzy is the main percussionist for his school’s select jazz band. There is really nothing like seeing your children perform. Besides that, there is just something deliciously awkward about middle school band.
After that, there was the extra stitching involved in trying to get ready for a trunk show at the blue.hollowman gallery.
I followed that with two days of trunk show. (I am obsessed with those small pieces by Sonya Kelher Combs that are behind my table in the photo on the right.)
On Monday, I still had not done the normal itty-bitty amount of holiday shopping that I do do. Title Wave was packed. This is our version of Powells, and it is pretty impressive if you are a book lover.
The lines were maddening. Costco.
Yesterday, I tanked. I knit and listened to Audible. I let the email PILE up. I read a book, and I took a nap. I recharged.
I hope you all have had the chance to do the same.
PS- For you Star Wars lovers here is a chart that matches your Myers Briggs personality type with its very own Star Wars Character.