Okay, this happened in June, but it is still a good story with excellent visuals, so here we go.
When my friend Cynthia Schidner invited me to the first ever Wild Wonder Women of the Wrangells Bad Ass Hero Camp, I was the first to say yes.
I know, it is a mouthful, but eventually it rolls off the tongue.
What is the Wild Wonder Women of the Wrangells Bad Ass Hero Camp? It is a retreat—yoga, hiking, journaling, eating, connecting, and slowing down—in one of the most beautiful places in the world, the Wrangell St. Elias National Park.
I signed up, paid my deposit, and put it on my calendar.
Then May happened, and I got incredibly sick. I took antibiotics for the first time in 20 years.
I began to waver. In hindsight, I see now that I was afraid of doing something I had never done before. And because I was weaker than my normal self, I really feared failure. Could I really do yoga every morning, hike every afternoon, and be present with a group of women who don’t quilt?
I began making excuses to myself and Cynthia. ALL kinds of excuses, that if I recounted them, I would look quite foolish, so I will not.
It didn’t help when I discovered that all the other participants were friends. It is hard to show up and be the unknown when everyone else is known and then do yoga in front of them. This is Meg McKinney our amazing yoga instructor.
If only it were a quilting retreat! I would shine. That is my zone. Instead I might be the worst. Nobody likes that feeling.
But this wasn’t a competition. It was a retreat, a recharge, a release. I needed to do what I tell my students to do. I needed to check my ego at the door.
And I did it.
I showed up and was fully present with my new hiking friends.
As the photos show. It was amazing.
We did yoga every morning.
We ate delicious home cooked meals.
We shared stories about family and friends, exercise and nutrition.
And I know now that I might not be really fast, or super strong, or extra limber, but I am capable. I can do it.
I can retreat.